I have just woken up from the most vivid and horrible dream ever. Everything has been felt so real and I have been following every single emotion, literally feeling the pain. That leaves me awake with a pounding and insecurity. The dream starts off with him and I in the room, arguing or something, then I have caught him cheating and managed to get him to tell me who the girl is. The girl is a new classmate of him (whom I have really seen on facebook in real life). I can dream all the full details of the facebook page and a provocative profile picture of her in black bra and panties. Yes, I do dream that much detail. I keep asking him why does he do this to me and does he know that it is hurting me a lot, that he has promised not to cheat. But he just shrugs off and refuses to talk to me. The whole thing is so cold heart-ed. In the dream, I sob and yell until I have no voice. Then I couldn’t take it and take the keys and run downstairs in tears and PJs. (Forgive me for being over dramatic, I can’t really control how it goes) I charge down the street and proceed towards the main road. Along the way, guys who may be police are forcing a group of people to be in line (supposed to be illegal immigrant or something else). Weird detail. He follows right behind but stops in front of a car to talk to someone (in chinese! which he isn’t fluent in). I try to get myself killed but he doesn’t even care. SO I end up hitting him with my bunch of keys while he is talking, demanding to know how exactly he has cheated. I could feel myself dying bit by bit when he pours out the tiny details (what they did, where, etc). The scariest part is I am too weak in the dream that I have plans to end my life. Then that’s when I wake up with a jolt and a weird feeling in my chest.
I don’t know is it a sign or a warning. Probably I have been thinking too much and due to the chaos lately. I will be having an exam tonight, honestly, this is the worst subject I have ever done. I don’t get what’s been taught all semester long. It certainly doesn’t with all the crap that has been going on. I try to make it up by studying for it. But I don’t understand at all. All prepared to fail. At least this is not the worst thing, I can still pass. I have finally managed to stop myself to text him for a full day but I turn the wifi for a gazillion times just to check whether he has imessage me (I’m using an Ipod). The thing is he doesn’t know whether he wants to be with me anymore. That hurts. Every time I try to have a talk, he claims he is busy and tired, not ready to go into it. I have lost the ability to know or feel whether he really still wants to be with it, since he has never put me as a priority and never really think of me. I can’t deal with it, you could say I’m avoiding or something. But I’m so scared of losing myself and crying for hours all the time.
I’m sorry you had such a terrible dream. It does make it hard to go through the day when you have it stuck in your mind. But, like you said, it is just your brain working while you’re asleep and it doesn’t predict the future or forewarn you. It is just releasing what you haven’t released. Stress has different ways of affecting your body and vivid dreaming, especially nightmares is one of them. Don’t think too much of it or put too much importance because it can haunt you for longer than its worth.