I am studying and all of a sudden, a thought pops up inside my head, I no longer blame depression for ruining my life. Instead I think of it now as something to helps me to realize that my life now is going to be better. I have had the worse and now I am beginning to treasure those around me and feel lucky for what I had. It is simply a stage where I have to suffer before I could enjoy all the good things in life. Geez. These sound funny. I am not sure is it because I have been attending church lately. But I am beginning to see something in a different way. Thank you, god/the big man up above for restoring the good things in my life and I hope you can get me out of this rut forever.